Friday, December 31, 2010

Saying Goodbye to 2010

The year started strong....

2010 brought us a beautiful, healthy, happy, chubby, funny, silly, CRAZY baby into our lives. My cherub blue eyed girl brings this house more laughter and joy than I could have ever imagined.

It got rocky for a little while there....

2010 brought pain, grief, and postpartum depression.

2010 sent me to a counselor for the first time since I held my daughter in my arms for the last time 6 years prior and said goodbye.

2010 saw friendships rocked. Some ended. There were tears and pain.

2010 made me watch others in such excrutiating emotional pain that it brought me to tears regularly.

It had it's redeeming qualities too....

2010 introduced me to yoga, the first and only form of exercise I've ever been able to say I truly enjoy.

2010 brought me to a point of searching in my life. Who I am and where I want to be for years to come. I'm still working on that one.

2010 ended with a new home and happy family of four. Truly happy.

2010 renewed my strong love for Andrew in a way that 15 years after I first met him, I still get butterflies when around him.

2010 had my husband tell me that he has gotten his wife back, after 6 1/2 years. He is seeing me truly happy again.

Tonight, I say goodbye to 2010. I know it won't be a year I will forget for so many reasons. I'm looking forward to 2011. Tonight, I'll toast to New Beginnings. I'm not sure I'm make true New Year's Resolutions. We'll see.

Goodbye 2010.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


After an hour of an half of holding "Sissy" (Katie) and passing her back and forth between me and Andrew while entertaining Maggie, we stepped up to see Santa as two strung out parents thinking of the wasted time and frustration. Then my girls sat on Santa's knees and it all melted away. I watched Maggie lovingly reach other and try to calm Sissy down. I saw Katie turn to Santa with a frantic scared look in her eyes and then turn to us for reassurance that all was alright. In that moment, all my silly frustration of the night was gone. My beautiful girls sat before me and I saw that my family was complete.

Katie's entrance into our lives as brought us to a point of wholeness. This year, we finally bought the ornament that says "The Scott Family" for our tree. All three of my girls have their "Baby's First Christmas" ornament hanging close to one another, and I know that I will not add another one of those. We miss and love our Allie so much and I wish that she was right there in the mix with her sisters. However, I know now that I am done. My family is complete. I'm so lucky to have three amazing daughters and could not ask for anything more special or wonderful then them and the husband I have.

I'll have to post the Santa picture here soon too. Sis still wasn't thrilled at the whole experience but she looks adorable. Maggie takes my breath away seeing what a big girl she has become.

I'm a lucky woman.