Friday, March 20, 2009

Just need to whine a bit

In college, I had my first ovarian cyst rupture. It was so painful. Between freshmen and sophmore year of college, it happened five or six times. Finally, the OB put me on birth control to regulate it and stop it from happening. The pain was gone. I didn't have any problems for years. That is, until I stopped taking birth control in 2003. I had one rupture then. Then I got pregnant with Allie a month later.

A few months after Allie's death, we were in Utah with our family for Thanksgiving when it happened again. Trying for Maggie, I had three ovarian cysts burst. Unfortunately, Dennis told me that the only thing that he could put me on to stop it from happening was birth control.

A month ago, I went to see Dennis and had an IUD removed. We're officially trying! So, it should be no surprise that guess what happened? Yeah, I had an ovarian cyst burst this weekend. As soon as it started, I knew what was going on. And we were at a birthday party of one of Maggie's classmates. As soon as we could, I hightailed it home for a heating pad and the fetal position.

It's been almost a week. Now, I'm cramping BAD. I've never experience this level of cramping. I called this morning but the nurse said beyond pain killers, there's nothing that will make it stop. He speculates that after a year and a half of having an IUD, my body is trying hard to ovulate, and I'm feeling it. Fun.

I came home from work this afternoon to get on my couch and in my pjs. I feel whiney. I feel bitchy. The pain killers aren't making the pain subside. It is more than just regular cramps, going into my back (the nurse said it can radiate to the back, that's common, but damn I still don't like it!). I have the half marathon in two weeks and hurt too much to train. The next two weeks of work are supposed to be our two toughest, longest weeks of the year with Heroes and Handbags Houston and Dallas happening April 1st and 3rd.

I don't have time for this shit.

16 comments:

ViolinMama said...

vent away. You deserve to. My friend and I were just talking about cysts the other day. I've always suspected for years I get them, but smaller. It's like I can tell I'm ovulating (or trying) and some months I get a burst of pain - the bursting I guess?

I'm sorry you have this much trouble when trying with the ovaries. I pray your get preggo fast, so you can have a 9 month break, then other measures to help you out.

I hope the cramping eases up too, ASAP. Can one try acupuncture or something homedic/holoistic to help? I don't have any tips for that though....

Happy Spring though. You and Maggie should check out the new Google logo. Some fun links go with it for today/ Eric Carle! Thanks for posting, venting or not. It's nice to hear from you!

USMCwifeAMY said...

I'm sorry to hear about the pain you're having, cysts have got to be painful. :( I hope that it subsides and as pp said, I hope you get preggo quickly so you get the relief of that and a sweet lil baby in your arms!! Good luck!! (We're trying too!!)

Tammy said...

Prayers are coming your way, hope you can get pregnant soon, and get rid of all that pain. I know you'll make your race, you're just that determined, and your upcoming events, you are 'Allie's' Mom! One of the most inspiring people I've met in my lifetime! Hugs.....

Sherrie said...

Oh I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. I truly hope it gets better for you. Hang in there. I've definitely noticed my ovulation cramps MUCH more since having a tubal after my last child was born. Good luck with the TTC. I can't wait to hear news that you all are expecting. :)

karen3480 said...

Have you tried Therma Care Heat Wraps? I use them for menstral cramps all the time. You said you're getting back pain I know they make a lower back wrap too you might want to try that too for when you need to be mobile and can't use the heating pad. Also Chamomile tea might help it's very relaxing and I have stomach issues and it stops the cramps I'm sure it works the same as with women's cramps.

Feel better!

Toes in the sand said...

I honestly feel your pain. I have dealt with ovarian cysts since I was 16 yrs old! I have to stay on bc or I suffer as well. I swear that the cysts rupturing is worse than labor! I hope you get some relief soon.

kmm0305 said...

Whine away! I have dealt with kidney stones since I was 16--in the hospital with them each time I was pg, surgery for one when dd #2 was 3 months old. I am more than overdue for them and even went in for a CT scan last year because I was having "that" pain again. The Dr. told me it was an ovarian cyst, although I don't think it burst. (?) I've been on BCP for over 3 years now and from what I had read that was supposed to help not to get them. Anyway, it doesn't sound like fun!

Amy said...

Well that just sucks! I'll say some extra prayers for your pain to go away. I've never had anything like that before and it sounds awful. I think you should be able to get an easy pass on this. You have been through so much.

~~Mel~~ said...

Oh no Jenny! I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. I hope you are feeling better very soon.

Sarah said...

That sucks! Do you get sick and throw up too? When I've had them rupture, I seriously can't move because it hurts so much, and then I end up throwing up. It's the worst pain I've ever had!

Here's hoping you'll get pregnant soon, and have an entirely different set of frustrating "symptoms" :-)

Amie said...

No good! You TOTALLY do not have time for that crazy pain. I guess the only good news is that you know your eggs are in full-force, right?

Toni said...

i have pcos, and have cysts burst sometimes...i can empathize with you on that :( sorry you are having so much pain! i took lodine for inflammation and otc pain meds and it seemed to help, hope your meds help you soon too! i'll keep you and your family in my prayers...

~toni

Tracy said...

Hi Jenny,

I am so sorry you are experiencing this again. I can officially (unfortunately) tell you I know how you feel. The first time it happened to me was this past January. I almost had my husband take me to the hospital. It was like I was in labor with my daughter. It radiated to my back and I couldn't walk. Sheer pain.
I hope you are feeling better. Sending you positive pregnancy vibes!

Tracy Feeney

Petunia said...

Hi Jenny,
I'm sorry - I can't find a place to contact you directly - so I am using this post!

I'm an Ontario mom who has followed your story since you were on baby center after Allie was born (I have a Jan/04 daughter).

I'm so happy to see that life is bringing you such beautiful blessings!

I admit there was about a year that I didn't check in to see your posts, and I'm wondering about your friend Dana, with her son Sam who had cancer. Are they okay? I've thought of them often and can't find any mention of them. I hope they are all well and in good health.

Cheers, and I really hope you're feeling better soon!!

Mary Beth
mbdickinson@rogers.com

aggiebonfire00 said...

sorry that you are in so much pain jenny. i hope that it subsides soon. also, praying for you and andrew as you create another amazing little person!

sincerely,
one of allie's biggest fans!

Karen - Mommy to four sweeties said...

I hope you are feeling better and pregnant before you know it!