2012 was better. It still had lots of overwhelming stress. Selling the house made this summer one of the most exhausting and overwhelming experiences. I'd rather not do that again for a while. Chairing a 5K when I was in the middle of it all-not my brightest idea. MM had some rough times that caused emotional strain on us and our relationship. I loved and supported him as best as I could through it, and we've come through. There was plenty of good in the year too. I found a smoother transition as a teacher in my second year back to teaching. Started to get my stride this year. Our new home has given us so much and we're very happy here. I still had my struggles emotionally from the divorce from time to time, but I found those becoming more spaced out this past year. I learned to love and be loved deeper than I ever have before.
The year ended with one of the best two weeks I could imagined for us. Something that was a long time in the making finally happened and MM and I couldn't have been happier for how it all went. Our Christmas was perfect and my girls were so happy. Moving to this new home and changing my finances meant I was able to provide them a really good Christmas on my own. I cried when I finished wrapping the gifts and getting them all set under the tree because I knew that *I* did that for them. New Year's was quiet and low key with another couple. So, last night as 2012 was coming to a close, I wasn't sad to see it go. However, I think I'll look back on it and know it was a pretty good year. All in all, I have no complaints.
And now for 2013--what I truly want this year is stability. I'd love to have a year where no major life event occurs. No move, heartbreak (please, no heartbreak), change in career, or loss of those I love. I'd like that "happy hum" of life this year. I do have a few goals, or resolutions I guess you can call them. Nothing major or life altering. Maybe I'll share my list in a different post.
I've survived both 2011 and 2012 and look to 2013 with hope and optimism. All I want for this year is love, happiness and stability in my life. I wish that for you and your family as well.
Happy New Year.