I stayed home from work on Friday and my mom picked up Maggie and took her until last night around 6:30. I spent my time with chills, body aches, fever, and general misery. When Maggie came home last night, I was locked in my bedroom with a raging fever. Andrew would call me and report on what was going on. It was torture--I could hear them laughing and talking, and i couldn't do anything about it!
No, we didn't do anything for Andrew's birthday. I was too sick. When he found me sticking my gatorade cup on my head to cool off, he decided we weren't going to try. What a fun 30th birthday for him, huh?
Today, he and Maggie went to Ft. Worth to ride the trains and visit Nana. They're back now and while I am in her view, I'm still camped out on the couch and not really apart of what is going on in my house.
So there you have it. In one week, I hung out with my child on Wednesday night. The rest? Nope. Mother of the Freaking Year.
7 comments:
Awww Jenny.
It doesn't make you a bad mother, if you are sick, then you have to do what you can to get better quickly, thats whats best for Maggie.
I am not saying its easy, to feel like you are ignoring her, or not spending enough time with her, but in the long run, she will understand. Its not as if you are doing it on purpose, if its work, she will understand because you are honoring her awesome big sister, if its because you are sick, she will worry and want you to get better.
Jen, the California one.
aww Jenny :( It makes me sad to hear you being so hard on yourself. I think you ARE mother of the year! I'm so sorry your sick, Maggie is the happiest little girl, she is lucky that she has a momma that cares about getting well and taking precautions etc. so that you can be healed faster for her!
I can bring you some chicken noddle! hehe :)
Take care and hope you are better soon! :)
I'm sorry your week has been so yucky, Jenny. But honestly--had you overexerted yourself and tried to be with Maggie, you might have gotten her sick too and definitely made yourself worse. You did the right thing, even though it sucked.
Hopefully once you're feeling better you can catch up on some extra special Maggie time, and maybe you can celebrate Andrew's birthday next weekend? Good luck!
By the way, we all have those days. The days, weeks, months that we feel like the worst most shitty parents on the face of the earth because of what we missed, what we didn't do, what we wished we did more of.
You know what makes us good parents? That we worry about all those things, and the effects, and how our kids feel.
Not all parents stop to even think about how they parent. Trust me, you're a good parent, just because you worry about the lack of time in one week.
Oh, Jenny. I'm so very sorry you caught the flu bug... but even sorrier you caught the guilt bug! Begone, guilt bug! BEGONE!
As the nanny said, you did the right thing (just not the easy thing) by sequestering yourself from Maggie and Andrew... and you know they'll be even more excited to hang out with you when you're feeling like yourself. Which will be soon, very soon... I'm sure of it.
Take care of yourself...
Amy
Ditto to what Amy said...c'mon now, chin up. Sing it like the Byrds "To every thing, turn, turn, turn, there is a season, turn, turn, turn...a time of illness, a time of health, a time of taking care of Maggie, a time of pawning her off..."
SING IT WITH ME GIRLFRIEND.
You're sick. It happens. What makes you a great mother is that you know when to take advantage of your fantastic support system so that she's a happy little camper while you recover.
Love you and feel better. And let go of the guilt - I can bear firsthand witness that you are a fantabulous mother.
Awe.. that happens Jenny.. The best thing you did was get rest for you and avoid getting her sick. Best wishes for a speedy recovery..
((HUGS)) from Oregon.
Post a Comment